There are times when...

There are times when...

• I get frustrated easily.
• I feel like I am being cynical and skeptical of everyone.
• I want to share my feelings with someone but find none!
• I think of the past when I didn't miss some friends...
• I remember my worst deficiencies and brood over them.
• People doubt my integrity and the occasional frank-speak.
• Somebody I know says I am not confident enough and I start believing it.
  
• I think destiny has nothing but the worst plans for me.
  
• I see a look of intense hate even in strangers.
• Life seems like a monotonous drag.

There are also times when...

• I smile to a stranger and he smiles back.
• I think, maybe this girl seems nice and talk to her and she opens up. (this is very rare :) )
  
• A person makes a sincere comment of appreciation and it goes straight to my heart.
• I cycle for some distance and strangely, happiness overwhelms me for no particular reason.
• I see a monkey sniffing at a flower on the temple steps and the sight calms me.
  
• A song I love plays on the radio just when I want to listen to it.
• I unearth a gem of a book by instinct and savor it every bit.
  
• I feel a spring in my step and a rare streak of empowering confidence.
  
• I get a call from a friend after a long time and we tease each other over those good old days.
  
• I feel my worries are no big deal compared to what others go through.

There is a good amount of difference between these two sets of feelings.

When I realize that:

• People have their own idiosyncrasies that are inflexible no matter what.
• I should not expect a great deal of attention and words of comfort too often. After all, I am a grown up :)
• Intense observation is powerful enough to make me forget my worries.
  
• Whether I am confident or not depends solely on me.
  
• Friends may be busy and have their own worries to occupy themselves with.
• A smile and a brisk walk will wash away any signs of tiredness and boredom.
• It is up to me to make my life interesting.
  
• I should not look for approval, instead proceed to do whatever is right.
  
• I can make the first step towards a conversation but not always; if somebody finds my company good, they'll also take some steps.
  
• There are some people who don't need explanations to understand me.

That is when I enter a realm and I don't judge anybody, am comfortable in my own skin and the whole world seems a lot more friendly.

If this seems like a boring post, it is!